R. SHLOMO CARLEBACH
EXCERPTED TEACHINGS ON THE HOLIDAYS
Collected in honor of the Congregation and Yeshiva
of Shalom al Yisrael Synagogue, Jericho

Part V: Lag b'Omer, Shavuot


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...The gemara says it takes 3 years to become ??fine? ... So when children are born it takes them an extra 3 years to come into the world. So when children come into this world -- sadly enough they cannot lead a heavenly existence in this world ... sadly enough neshama -- let it just be the outside [that we cut]. But for us yidden the outside is also so important.
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R. SHLOMO CARLEBACH ON LAG B'OMER
FROM: 	Lag B'Omer Tav Shin Nun Bet/ Mishkanot Jerusalem, Israel,1992
>From lag, Transcribed input & held by R. Joshua Witt (C\BOOK:lag) All copy-rights reserved, R. Joshua Witt, Jerusalem
Eliyahu HaNavi says, I can't leave the world because there are lot of Yidden I haven't seen yet. Eliyahu HaNavi wants so much to see every Yid. Eliyahu HaNavi is so much aware. You know every Yid, every little Yiddela has something which nobody else has. And I cannot leave this world until I see it.
Do you know why it's so heartbreaking to see those professors of Kabbala, right. It's the biggest joke in the world. They don't want more because they want to serve G-d with more, because they want to know more...
A professor needs a vacation in the worst way. For four weeks he doesn't want to think of the subjest he's teaching. Because his life doesn't depend on it. Yes, livelihood, but not his life. A Yid, if you are learning Torah, ' Y  V'hagesa yomam v'layla ... You know, on what does Torah Sh'Baal Peh depend? To learn Torah, to add to the Torah only when your very life depends on it, If you can live without it, forget it.
So everybody knows, Aharon HaCohen, is the deepest fixing of Adam HaRishon. Remember we were learning it, that Pesach is the fixing of the Tree of Knowledge, of the food we ate, because the matsa is from the Tree of Life.
And one more very, very, very important thing. Remember we were learning it a thousand times, the last Torah is G-d says to Moshe, thank you for breaking the tablets in front of the eyes of all of Israel. If you remember the Zohar Kodesh says, through the eyes of Reb Shimon Yochai, the Holy Temple was never destroyed. It's only to our eyes....That means there are tsaddikim which are so holy, they mamash see the Bais HaMikdash all the time. So it says, Moshe Rabbenu broke the tablets, but only "L'ainei kal Yisrael", the Yidden saw that it's broken. What's the fixing? Y "B'reishis bara Elokim" You have to start all over again. So Aharon HaCohen is the Master....Why is Aharon HaCohen sitting in the Bais HaMikdash? Because the Bais HaMikdash says you always can come back.
Yosef HaTsaddik, is the King of the world. Yosef HaTsaddik is feeding the whole world. So ? Remember the Rizhiner says I made G-d the Master of Mitsrayim, not G-d made me the Master of Mitsrayim, I made G-d the Master of Mitrayim.
Sure there is Amalek, there are some bad people in the world. But there are also some good people in the world. You know what the Holy Sanzer says, this is the acid test that we are the chosen people. Because only the bad people of the world hate us. The good people love us. The good people in the world, mamash, they have such deep longing, to know who the Yidden are. Such deep longing. So whoever can come...
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Caveat:: The following are seperated paragraphs taken from a pp30 input; the talk was detailed, advanced, and very interwoven: in short, not really excerptable.
Everybody knows that on Shavuous, is Kabbalas HaTorah of Torah sh'b'ksav. (the written Torah) Lag b'Omer is Torah Sh'Baal Peh. (the Oral Torah) Because basically Reb Shimon ben Yochai is the biggest Talmid of Rabbi Akiva. Rabbi Akiva is the Master of Torah sh'Baal Peh. And it's the same thing, you know, Hod v'Hadar. Imagine, I say a gevaldt Torah, and while I'm saying it, that's Tiferet. And some of my chevre tell it back to me, right. That's Hod, right. Hod v'Hadar.
So Reb Shimon bar Yochai is not Rabbi Akiva, but he's his biggest Talmid. And he's saying over the Torah. Remember the Gemora says Reb Shimon bar Yochai    "Tamtsits min hatamtsits" The deepest,deepest depths of Rabbi Akiva. So this is Lag b'Omer. Everybody knows that Moshe Rabbenu is Torah sh'b'Ksav; Aaron HaKohen is Torah sh'baal Peh. Because it says,
(Because the lips of the Kohen guard knowledge and Torah, you should ask Torah from his mouth) Aharon is the one, Torah sh'baal Peh. And everybody knows, it's the oral tradition, everybody can add. Everybody can add. Endlessly. Endlessly.
Anyway, you see, on one hand, we are coming back to Erets Yisrael, but on Lag B'Omer, we celebrate that we never left. Because it's just "L'ainei kal Yisrael" (in front of the eyes of Israel). It looks like we made the Golden Calf, it looks like the Bais HaMikdash is destroyed, it looks like this Yid is not frum. It looks like this Yid, who knows what he did. Ah, but according to Reb Shimon bar Yochai, it never happened.
Maybe Lag B'Omer was a gevaldt Yom Tov in former good days. Every year it gets stronger. It gets deeper and deeper and deeper. I want you to know it's not only adding to the Torah; every Yid is one letter in the Torah. There's Torah sh'Baal Peh adding to a Yid. I was once on television without sounding commercial. They asked me, what's the difference between you and the others. I say, everyone is concerned with answering a shvera Rambam, a hard Rambam. I'm concerned with answering a shvera Yid.
Because I have a kasha (question) on this Yid, why don't you keep Shabbos? It's a gevaldt kasha, right? So I'm trying to answer it. So the answer is, you have to invite this Yid for Shabbos and he'll keep Shabbos, right. It's very simple. Give him mamash a taste of Shabbos.
I'm sure most of you know the Torah of the Mea Shiloach, Y   (Im b'chukosy taylaychu, if in My statutes you walk). And again just in a nutshell, Lag B'Omer always comes out between Emor, Behar and B'chukosy. What's B'chukosy all about? This is an unbelievable Torah from the Mea Shiloach if you remember it. You know the Mitsvos are very deep, very deep, very deep. But how do you know that this is really what G-d wanted? You know I can do everything 100% right, it's 100% according to Shulchan Aruch, 100% according to everyone, but yet, G-d wanted more of me. G-d wanted so much more of me. So the Heilage Ishbitser said, this is called "Chukosy", is that awesome. This "more." It's not... you cannot understand in your head, it comes from the deepest, deepest, "carved in" of your soul.
Lag B'Omer, 1992
You know, I was learning with the chevre, what's Y (Yoday bina l'eetim) He understands the Moment. First of all, S'firas HaOmer is the moment. The day. 26th, 27th. If you don't grab it, it's gone, right. Leah, that night, right. Obviously, she saw an opening. And also, you know, Kiddush HaChodesh is one second, right. One second of the moon.
And you know, S'firas HaOmer, on one hand it's Aharon HaCohen, he's coming back. On the other hand, S'firas HaOmer if you lost it, you lost it. The holiness of us Yidden is we are both. On one hand, it's clear to me, if I lose it, I lose it, G-d forbid. And on the other hand it's clear to me, I can always come back.
Everything in Eretz Yisrael happens in S'firas HaOmer because Y Y (V'Sfartem lachem- You should count for you) like the Sokotchover says. You know, because on one hand, Erets Yisrael is the land of all the Yidden... But you know, if I could say something like this, "All the Yidden" were never driven out, only nebech every Yid was driven out. Because you know what happened? In Chuts L'arets (outside of Israel) we are fighting all the time. Because if "all the Yidden" were driven out, we would be together, right. And all the Yidden who are fighting, is because they didn't come back yet. They didn't come back yet. They're sitting here, have an address, but they are not here yet. You know, I said to somebody, that Yom Ha'atsmaut and Yom Yerushalayim is so special, because we don't know what to do. Pesach I know what to do. My father, my Zeida, my Buba, a hundred Doros (generations), right. What do you do Yom Ha'atsmaut? We know only one thing, whatever we do, is not enough. But we don't know how to do it. Yom Yerushalayim, you say a little Hallel. What do we know? We don't even know what to do. So after Lag B'Omer, is Yom Yerushalayim. I mamash don't know what to do. The only thing I know, it's mamash,    Y (V'atah yodaya rah-zay olam v'ta'alumot sitray kal chai- You, G-d, know the secrets of the world and the secrets of all living things.) What do we know.
OK, we should be privileged to have a little taste in all those... You know the deepest secret in the world is not that G-d took us out of Egypt. The deepest secret in the world is the way G-d is bringing us back to Yerushalayim. That is the deepest secret in the world.       Y (B'shuv Hashem es
shivas Tsion ha'yeenu k'cholmim, when Hashem returns Zion as we were dreaming) Blowing our minds, right, can't take it, right. Let's sing this one more good nigun!
I just thought of something, gevaldt. You know after we count the Omer, we say mamash,       (Hoo yachzir lanu avodas Bais HaMikdash, He will return to us the Serving in the Holy Temple). We should go back to the Bais HaMikdash. Why don't I say it after I put on tefillin? But the answer is very simple. What's S'firas HaOmer? That I mamash keep on going. Every day, I'm higher, higher, higher. 21, 22, 23... And the Ishbitser says, the Mea HaShiloach, that if you make fun of another human being? If you don't give kavod to each other, then you can't move on, right? (taylaychu, b'chukosy, taylaychu, Walk, in my precepts, walk) Do you know what B'chukosy is? It's the deepest depths, right. So after I count the Omer, I realize that unless I give kavod to everyone, unless I shiver for every person, I won't go on. (He'll return to us the Serving in the
Bais HaMikdash)
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R. SHLOMO CARLEBACH ON LAG B'OMER
I. INVENTORY OF HARDCOPY ON LAG B'OMER
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From: Connections, Vol III #4 (1988) "Rabbi Carlebach's Pesach Teachings"
Why was the Torah given on Shavuos? Why didn't G-d take us first to Mount Sinai -- or G-d could give us a Torah in Egypt and then take us out -- G-d could do anything. First He took us out, then He gave us the Torah.
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Fragment from a teaching on the Apter Rebbe, no date Collection, Moshav Meor Modi'in
When G-d told us the ten commandments...just One Word was said; but after that, as it came down to the earth, when we went back to where we came from, suddenly it was ten words...When people talk to each other you can feel if they tell each other one word or a lot of words.
If people don't have the sensitvity to be quiet it is so bad -- it means they are so deaf they don't even hear how silent we are. `We will do and we will hear' [Exodus 19:____]. If a person knows who {'he' is} and who G-d is, what have they to ask? You only ask questions if you don't know who G-d is and who you are. ----------------------------------------------------------------- >From D:\BOOK3:sh_onjoy
R. Shlomo on R. Nachman's teachings: Dec. 6, 1981, Greenville, NH In Hebrew, one of the the major holidays {hagim, biblical harvest festivals} is simply called shalosh regalim, the three feet, because when you are happy, it's not the head, or the hands, but the feet. (The fourth foot would be when the Messiach is coming; right now the wagon is still riding on three -- )
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FROM R. Joshua Witt, C:\BOOK:lg
Teaching by R. Shlomo Carlebach, Lag b'Omer, 1992
You know, Shavuos night, I'm learning just the beginning and the end of every parsha. Because I know now already that I don't know the middle. I just know, I know a little bit of the beginning and the end. What do I know about the inside, the middle. The inside of the inside. What do I know, what do I know?
The night of Shavuos, the truth is, where you can reach that night, you don't reach Yom Kippur, you don't reach Simchas Torah... It's the highest, mamash the highest. Mamash the Ribbono Shel Olam is talking to us, not so simple, mamash. Not to be believed. You know what's so special on Shavuos? When we get a taste how it feels when G-d is talking to us. Then we realize He's been talking to us the whole time. Not just this one moment. You know we made the Golden Calf, because when Moshe told us G- d's word, it sounded to us like Moshe is talking. So the fixing of Shavuos is, that I mamash know it's not Moshe. Anyway, you know, I can say      (Moshe, Shechina midaberes metoch grono. Moshe, the Divine presence was talking through his throat) And mamash I can say, mamash, after I fix my right kidney I realize the Ribbono shel Olam is talking right out of me. Even Moshe Rabbenu is too far away. So you see, the night of Shavuos is called "Tikun", there's no night in the world which is called "tikun". That night, being up all night, you can fix everything there is. Mamash -everything. Not to be believed. I don't want to say anything bad, but imagine, G-d forbid, chas v'shalom, there's cancer in the world, right. A terrible sickness, so doctors try to find a cure. You have to do this... Imagine someone would say, all you have to do is be up all night. Not to be believed, right. How sick is the world? How sick are we? We are completely off, right. And here the Ribbono shel Olam tells us, just one night. One night.
You know what it is, this month the fixing is, we have to trust our right kidney. We have to trust our kishkes a little bit, mamash.
Good Shabbos, Good Yom Tov.
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Shavuos, the Revelation on Mount Sinai, is also the day of the passing away of King David. On that day we read the story of Ruth, his grandmother. Elimelech, a descendent of our father Judah, and a very rich Jew, was the high judge during a famine in Israel. He took his wife Naomi, and his two sons, Mahlon and Chilion, and went to Moab. There Mahlon and Chilion married the two daughters of the king of Moab, Ruth and Orpah. Then Elimelech, Mahlon, and Chilion all died and the fmaily lost all their money, so Naomi decided to go back to Israel, where the famine had already ended. Her two daughers-in-law walked with her, and both of them said, 'I want to go with you', but Ruth meant it, and Orpah just said it. So Orpah stayed behind, and Ruth went with Naomi.
In Israel, in former good days, the four corners of the field belonged to the poor. The law is very strong. It's not that you cut off the corners of the field and give it to the poor, because then it is yours, and you are giving it away. You can't cut the four corners; they don't belong to you. It is the poor man's field. Another law is, when you harvest from the field, if you forget something you are not allowed to go back. If something falls it also doesn't belong to you.
So, when Ruth and Naomi came back to Israel, Ruth went to gather food. And by divine providence she went to the field of Boaz, who was actually a cousin to her husband. Boaz came to look at his field, and he saw a very, very beautiful woman. Not just beautiful, in every way shining. He asked who she was, and his workers told him she was a princess of Moab who come to Israel, poor now. He said to the workers, "Please make sure that a lot is forgotten, and a lot falls down. And during lunchtime when you eat, give her some olives, some bread."
The Torah says that the Moabite is not to be accepted into the congregation of Israel. Only if a Moabite converts, then after three generations he can become part of Israel. Why? It says, `Because he did not bring you bread and water when you went into the desert.' Who was the tribe of Moab? Moab was the daugher of Lot. Lot was the nephew of Abraham. Abraham rescued Lot from Sodom by his prayers. That means Moab owed its whole existence to Abraham. Moab had a chance to pay back to the Jews what they owed them, what they owed Father Abraham, by bringing them bread and water in the desert.
In those days who was supposed to bring bread and water? Only the man. In those days women wouldn't go out of the house to bring bread and water to the desert. Suddenly on the very day, the very instant that Ruth and Naomi crossed the border, the High Court in Jerusalem started discussing the law which says a Moabite cannot come into the congregation of Israel. They said this means only the male Moabite, not the female. Because she cannot be accused of not bringing bread and water.
In former good days the law was that if someone died, leaving a wife without chidren, someone in the family had to marry her. The day after the court decision Boaz said, "Someone has do do something for this girl. Someone has to marry her." There was one man who was a closer relative than Boaz, but that man was super-holy, and he said, "No, I couldn't marry a girl who was converted. I know the holy court decided the woman Moabite is Okay, but I am not so sure about the Holy Court." Boaz said, "Then, I am next."
Boaz married her, but the very sad thing is that Boaz died the next morning. That means he was only married to Ruth for one night. The Zohar says the reason Boaz came into the world was for just that one night. Ruth had a son, Oved. Oved had a son Yeshai. And Yeshai had a son David, the King of Israel, the ancester of Messiach.
And who was Ruth? Our father Abraham had two star pupils. One was Lot, his nephew. And the other was Chedorlaomer. Abraham was really giving; that was his message to the world. Suddenly his star pupil, Chedorlomer, turns around and becomes the king of Sodom, where the law was that if you were caught giving something to the poor you were killed. If you killed someone, you were rewarded. If you hit somone you got paid. Everything completely perverted. And Cherdorlomer became the king!
A few months later the second star pupil of Abraham, Lot, took off also and became the high judge of Sodom. This was the end for Abraham. The Zohar says that after Lot left, was the first time Abraham really prayed for a son, because all the time he had thought, `I have two sons, maybe not physically my sons, but they are spiritually my sons.' After they left he realized he had to have a son who would really continue.
Listen to this. Who was the real star pupil of Abraham? The real star pupil of Abraham was a little girl, the daugher of Lot. She really absorbed all of Abraham's teachings. When her father went to Sodom she didn't want to go along, but what could she do? After she came to Sodom the most horrible thing happened. The poor didn't die in the streets anymore. The Sodomites couldn't find out who was feeding them. This went on for a long time. If you remember the story, two angels came to Abraham and one of them said, `God sends word to you: Her crying reaches me, and I am going to destroy Sodom.' The other angel told Abraham he would have a son, Issac. The Zohar asks what's, `Her crying' Who is this `Her'?
The answer is, that one day in Sodom the little girl was caught giving a piece of bread to a poor man. The Sodomites poured honey over her and then put her on the roof and she was eaten by the bees. This is the most painful death anyone can be subjected to.
When the time is right, G-d works fast. The next day Sodom was destroyed, and Abraham needed another star pupil, Issac. Although Issac was very holy, he was ready to die for G-d, he doesn't compare to that girl. That girl died for giving a poor man a piece of bread. The Zohar Kodesh says that the soul of that girl came back to the world, and she was Ruth. So Messiach is the descendent of those two star pupils, Issac, who was ready to die for G-d, and Ruth, the soul that really died for people. That's the story.
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Matan Torah (the giving of the Tora) is not what I see...it's not what I know. The Tora is with us always, forever...because the Tora does not depend on how much I know the Torah. Sure I should learn it, hopefully. But the Tora is...inside of me. It's like shtei halechem (the two Temple shewbreads), it's One.
Shavuos is Yom Matan Torah (Day of the giving of the Tora) not Yom Kabbalas haTorah (Day of the Receiving of the Torah.)
When I'm learning Torah, I'm mikabel (receiving) the Torah. On Shavuos, I just can't believe it, I can't believe that the Ribbono shel Olam [The master of the World] gave me the Torah. Shavuos night, the way we prepare ourselves for the Torah is not learning the Torah.
`Zayin' comes from the world `zreezus', fast. Matzah is fast. "We left with great speed from the land of Egypt" this is the zreezus of matzah. mochin d'Gadlus (higher consciousness.)
What's Matan Torah all about? `I have no idea'. "Na'aseh v'nishma" (We will do and we will hear).
Chodesh Sivan always begins after Parshas B'chukosy. The shem (name) of this month [of Sivan] is `V'Yisodosov U'l'tselah HaMishkan'. The Ishbitser says...the `shem' comes from our putting the nails in the Mishkan. To put in nails, there has to be absolutely no empty space. [Otherwise the nail will fall out.] He says, Receiving the Torah means, There is not one empty space left in my heart.
The `Zayin', the fixing of the `zreezus' of Shavuos is much deeper than `fast'. On Shavuos I bring chamets. We bring an offering of new wheat to the Holy Temple. Chamets basically is slow. I just have Yiddishkeit in my heart. I better learn, and learning takes time. So the karbon (sacrifice) is `shtai halechem'. The two loaves. You have to learn. But the deepest depths, is not what's happening down here, it's in heaven. What's happening inside. In the heaven of my neshama. It's not Chamets...it's the letter `zayin', fast.
The Ishbitser says, What is `teomim', the twins? The twins are my conscousness and my... superconsciousness.
On Shavuos it's clear to me that even if I'll never know even one letter of the Tora, gevalt, am I close.
Why was the Torah given in the desert? If I'm all alone in the desert, and suddenly I meet another friend... We mamash stood at Mount Sinai, Three million people, and we loved each other the most. Imagine if you could have this kind of joy.
Reb Leibele Eigar says, `Imagine I'm in the desert, but I have in my hand a map of the desert. This map will show me how to get out of the desert. How much am I watching that map? This is how much I have to guard the Torah. Without the Torah, without Yiddishkeit, I'm lost forever; there's no way for me to put my life together.
The `Etz HaHaim' (Tree of Life) is the `YUD VAV' shining right into me. The way a child knows, `this is my mother, this is my father'. And the way parents know their children. You know G-d is asking us, `Who will take the guarantee that you will keep the Torah?' Our children will be the guarantee. Because my children remind me, that the way I know my children, this is the way to know the Torah.
What is Ruth all about? The YUD VAV. The Torah is shining.
When I was seven years old I had the privilege of hearing the Chavler Rov, one of the biggest Geonim [geniuses] in the world. He said to my father, imagine that a big Rosh Yeshiva is walking down the street. Suddenly on the other side of the street there is a very beautiful girl standing? Will he stop and ask, who is this girl?
Boaz is coming to his field, with all his chassidim. Boaz was the Rebbe. And he asks, "Who is she?" [Ruth II:3]. The Midrash says, he saw the Schechina on her face. Where would Meshiach be if Boaz hadn't stopped?
The Chavler Rov said to my father, `With all the Rosh Yeshivas together, we don't have one Boaz.' He says, "I don't know anybody who would have the guts to stop and say, `Who cares what they think!'"
Do you know what Meshiach is all about? Azus d'Kdusha. I don't care what you think. I love you. If I know this is right, I'm doing it. You know where this strength is coming from? This is YUD VAV, the deepest Torah in the world.
Every word that Ruth uttered...came from the deepest depths of her neshama. Every word is Torah. David HaMelech is the master of Tefilla (prayer). It's the same Torah, it's the Torah of the deepest depths of life. You now the difference between learning and davening, praying the Torah? Someone asked Reb Nachman, `Can you please tell me the secret of Tsitzis?' He replied, `If you'll cry as many tears as there are threads in the Tallis, then I'll reveal to you the secret of Tsitsis'.
I heard from the Bobover Rebbe, that a few years before the Second World War, there was a big convention in Poland of all the big Rebbes. And they were talking to each other, what are we going to do when the Messiach comes? How are we going to greet him? Gevalt! It would have been interesting to know what every Rebbe said! The Bobover Rebbe said only what his father said, the Holy Rebbe Ben Tzion. He said, `When Meshiach is coming I will not be ashamed to walk with my Yeshiva to greet him. Everybody will carry his Gemorrah, his Kitsot HaChoshen in his hand, and Meshiach will open the Gemorrahs, and he will see that every page is wet with tears.' Not tears of pain. So deep. A different kind of learning...This is the learning of David HaMelech. Meshiach learning.
When Ruth wanted to convert, Naomi said to her, "You are the daughter of the King of Moab, if you convert you lose it all." So Ruth says, `I'm only going where you're going.' Then Naomi says, "If you convert you will have to observe the Mitzvas". Ruth says, "Wherever you sleep, I will sleep." Then Naomi says, "If you are a non-Jew and do not keep the Mitzvas, nothing will happen to you. But if you become a Jew and do not keep the Mitzvas, you will be punished." And Ruth says, `Wherever you die, I will die. I'm ready to die."
And you know this is not `Chametz knowlege'. This is not even `Shtai HaLechem' knowlege. This is, `I don't know anything, I just know I have to be there.' And everybody knows, this is David HaMelech. King David, the great grandson of Ruth.
Sadly enough, we are living in a world where we think doing `Tshuva' means, I did something wrong. You think Ruth did something wrong? Because she was born by the King of Moav? That's the way she was born! G-d sent her this way. Tshuva means something else. Tshuva means, that I'm connected to the Torah without knowing it. Tshuva means that I'm connected to every page of the Gemorrah. Do you know, even before I know the whole Shas, the whole Talmud, I have already cried over very page of the Gemorrah.
On one hand I have to know, `I know something.' And on the other hand, I have to know that `I know nothing' The master of not- knowing is Aharon HaCohen. Moshe Rabbenu is the Master of Knowing.
What's the koach, the strength, of Aharon HaCohen? Coming to the Bais HaMikdash? Consoling the lowest Yiddele? He says, "I don't know anything. I did everything wrong my whole life. Look at me. I'm the same way. I don't know anything. I'm just beginning."
Why is David HaMelech the one who built the Bais HaMikdash? And why was it in Yerushalyim? If you remember, David HaMelech conquered Yerushalyim on Erev Shavuos. And Shavuos is not only the day of David HaMelech, it's the day of Yerushalyim. Of the Bais HaMikdash.
Ah, the fiftieth day comes, David haMelech comes. Our holy mother Ruth.
The Teomim, the twins of Sivan, is Rachel and Leah. Basically, Rachel is Yosef haTzadik...he never did anything wrong. Leah is the mother of Meshiach. David HaMelech does everything wrong.
When Rachel gave over the signs to Leah, you know what Leah gave over to Rachel? There is a Torah of Rachel and a Torah of Leah. Basically the Torah of Rachel is, I do everything right. There's a Torah which is so much deeper. There's a Torah which is not written down, you can't write it down. `B'chukosy Telechu'. `Walk in My ways.'
You know what's the deepest thing about `Counting The Omer'? If you miss one day, you can't fix it. Until Shavuos, until David HaMelech... I really don't know there is such a thing as doing Tshuva.
You see, we are so accustomed in doing Tshuva, we don't even bother thinking about it. I'll do an average sin, I'll do Tshuva, right? The first thing a Jew has to learn is that you can't do Tshuva! On Pesach, when G-d makes a Jew out of me, it has to be clear to me, `You better watch out.'
You know what a Blessing is? The Gemorah says, Blessing is only where you don't see anything. You know what this means? Basically the `Bet' and the `Aleph' are very close, because Aleph is, `I don't anything'. And the Bet, the Blessing, also begins where I don't see anything. I know nothing.
So this Shabbos after Shavuos, after mamash putting together Rachel, Leah, Moshe, and David HaMelech, it's now Aharon and Moshe. Moshe Rabbenu is giving over to Aharon the secret of Blessing.
Chodesh Sivan is `Yisodosov U l'tselah HaMishkan', it's filling in all the holes. You know how many holes are between us and the world? It's heartbreaking. Sivan is mamash Ruth, who comes back to us in the name of the whole world, filling in all the holes between us and the world. And what's the Beis HaMikdash all about? "My house is a house of love and prayer for all peoples." Do you know what a hole is? It's there and it isn't there. It's empty and it's there. Basically my life has to be a hole. I have to know that I know nothing yet. So G-d has to guard this kind of hole. I don't see anything...I give up, there is nothing. But there's also everything. This is so thin, so delicate.
I heard a Torah from the Ponevicher Rav, that it says by Aharon next Shabbos, Aharon was so heartbroken because the Nasiim, the rebbes of each tribe, brought korbanot [offerings], and he didn't bring anything. So G-d said to him, "Yours lasts forever. Your light will burn forever."
The whole Tshuva movement has been spoiled. Because... before, the Tshuva movement was Aharon HaCohen's movement, `Behaaloscha Es HaNeros'. Looking for the great light. And then the establishment took over. And the first thing is, they make you feel guilty. What did you do before?		Imagine that, when Ruth came to Boaz, Boaz had asked, `Who's your father?' The King of Moab?! You have spent your previous life as a Moabite?! Pshu! According to one of the Gemorrahs, Ruth was one of the most beautiful women. The second thing Boaz initiated is that when you see a person you say, `Hashem Imochem'. You greet people in the name of the Lord. You don't first ask them what they did yesterday. `Hashem Imochem' doesn't mean `G-d should be with you from now on'. It means, `G-d is with you all the time.'
In the Gemorah, Shavuos is called "Atseret". Keep it inside, don't let go it. And even if you are B'nei Gershon, even if for one reason or another you are driven out, don't ever think you are driven out. `Gam Hem', Mamash, you're always right there.
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R. SHLOMO CARLEBACH: EXCERPTS ON SHAVUOT
I. HARDCOPY INVENTORY ON SHAVUOT*
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